I was looking through my old files, searching for a spark of inspiration for my next archive entry, when I unexpectedly came across a photograph of myself from back in the day. This image, slightly pixelated but filled with warmth, transported me instantly to a simpler time—a time when my world was shaped by glitter, tulle, and the rhythmic clicking of heels on a stage.
My journey into the world of crowns and sashes began when I was just a little girl, long before I truly understood the weight of the titles I pursued. At five years old, I experienced my first taste of the stage as a fourth runner-up, a modest start that nonetheless ignited something deep within me. By six, I was celebrating my first major milestone: a win at our school pageant. I can still recall the details of that day as if it were yesterday. My entire family had rallied together to decorate our parade bike, transforming it into a masterpiece of ribbons and flowers. I remember sitting atop that bike, draped in a costume that felt like armor, feeling every bit like a Philippine princess. It was my first lesson in pride—not just in the national costume I wore, but in the vibrant colors and creative spirit that defined us.
Those early experiences sparked a joy that only grew as I transitioned into my teenage years. I continued to embrace the stage, navigating the spotlight with increasing enthusiasm. I went on to win numerous pageant awards at 12, 13, 14 and again at 16. While these were smaller competitions rather than national crowns, I carry them with genuine and lasting pride. Looking back, I realize they were my earliest, most foundational lessons in confidence, poise, and the importance of showing up for myself, even when I was nervous. And back then, I held onto big, shimmering dreams—I was convinced that my future was destined for the Miss Universe stage. To my younger self, that dream felt like the ultimate summit, the only measure of true success.
My mother, always the most supportive force in my life, recognized this budding passion early on. She took me to my first modeling class at 14, nurturing my curiosity and giving me the tools to stand tall. That dedication led me to a whirlwind of experiences: modeling competitions, runway gigs, photoshoots, and even appearances on TV and radio programs. Even now, reflecting on the fact that I had the privilege to step into those rooms and stand under those lights feels like a fever dream, an incredible chapter of formative exploration.
With my friend, ate Angel, my mommy, and my lola
My friends and I at the fashion show our moms organized
My first photoshoot for Rydax Manila
My favorite show - 2018 Sikat Pinoy (National Arts and Crafts Fair)
However, as I grew older, my vision for my life began to expand far beyond the confines of a runway. I started discovering new passions—intricacies of the world I hadn't noticed before—and I realized that the horizon held so much more for me to explore. It became clear that my identity was not solely tied to a sash or a score, and that the world was waiting for me to contribute in ways I hadn't yet imagined. In 2023, I took a creative leap by pivoting from modeling to creative organization. In partnership with Dalia, I directed a photoshoot themed "Ethereal Meadows" that proved to be an incredibly rewarding experience. It was a joy to see everything come together, especially with the help of my dear friend, Noime, who came through to support Angela, who was new in the industry. That day on set was a revelation; it solidified my realization that I truly love working behind the scenes, shaping the vision rather than just being the subject of it.
Ethereal Meadows - Featuring Noime and Angela, wearing Dalia, visualized by me
Looking back now, I don’t view those early years as a series of "what ifs" or lost opportunities. Instead, I see them as a beautiful, solid foundation. Those experiences didn’t just teach me how to walk in six-inch heels or maintain a polished smile for the camera; they taught me how to believe in my own potential and how to command a space with grace. Today, as I navigate my career as a marketing professional, I find that I bring that same discipline, poise, and love for life into every project I touch. I am deeply grateful for that chapter of my life—it was the crucible that helped forge the woman I am today, and I hold the quiet confidence that the best is still yet to come.